ABEL PROPHETT MUSIC PRODUCTION AND ARTISTIC PHOTOGRAPTHY

Is there anybody there listening….?

Tis been quite some time since I have paid any attention to my WordPress efforts, in truth writing here has not even held procrastinating intents to even check in/ up at all. I truly know not if, beyond the visible aspects of my account if someone may be aware that I or some version of myself exists…

The inner debate regarding self importance vs. self loathing is a really e-stupido-h exercise I never fail to participate in every single time the very idea of anyone besides myself paying any mind to whatever I may or may not do, and I try to find some way to inquire about such a concept…. (ideally this could have been easily managed, had conversations come about rather than those diabolical “like” button poots in the elevator that was my searching for any one understanding…)

Jesus wept!!! What was once a river of thought that never made any difficulty for me to imagine something inspiring, and be able to put those ideas into sentences, paragraphs etc… that. has all but entirely dried up. Now, I can never even put two sentences or phrases into writing, and the very effort quickly leaves me feeling as though exhaustion is #1 response to just trying to use the gray matter betwixt my ears.

I imagine I could follow that ludicrous thought process unto gassing myself out pointlessly. Rather than that, I want to make an announcement of some sort, or share what is the current event that inspired me to at least try to make some effort to connect once more with my blog if not another sentient life form in the space/ time continuum. There is actually significant reasoning for me to do this besides fishing for likemindedness. 🙂

As of 15 minutes ago I now have the 2nd album put together in a collection of “songs” numbering 13, and I have my 2nd CD recorded and ready to take out into Longview to share with others!! This 2nd album is still solely instrumental, albeit entirely constructed as a collection of BEATS.

Vamphyrii Metallurgy’s “Metallurgist’s Beats Vol. #1” is the follow up to my 1st release which was titled “Heart, Beats & Missing You”.. a gathering of melodies in ballad concepts, quite a bit less aggressive than my 2nd CD.

I still have been using Apple Music to at least keep everything in one application-ish, but I am now down to just having my MacBook and, no iPhone, or iPad at all… I have been reduced to using an android phone now, and I am unabashedly being aged into uselessness by the piece of crap phone and losing one account after another at breakneck speed by the biggest piece of shit ever shaped like a portable phone!! lolol!

In all seriousness, I hope to get my SSI benefits sooner than later and hopefully be able to at least purchase some model of iPhone or iPad to end my being stripped of viability electronically by the android from dumbass hell on Earth.

All that said, I hope to rally and present something worthy of noticing within a day or two, and somewhere out there someone gets a little rattle letting them know progress is still being made:) For the moment I want to simply say I wish you all the blessings which are so deserved and I hope your hearts are joyous and happiness is yours always.

Blessings always everyone,

A. Prophett. May 3,2024

Feels So Different Than Your Serenity Prayer (love & respect to dear, lonely Sinead O’Connor’s broken heart)

Feels So Different Than Your Serenity Prayer (love & respect to dear, lonely Sinead O’Connor’s broken heart)

Feels So Different Than Your Serenity Prayer (love & respect to dear, lonely Sinead O’Connor’s broken heart)

— Read on vamphriireveriessoliloquy.wordpress.com/2021/07/02/feels-so-different-than-your-serenity-prayer-love-respect-to-dear-lonely-sinead-oconnors-broken-heart/

Feels So Different Than Your Serenity Prayer released on Apple Music!! It’s just the teaser and spoiler alert! But it’s super dope and play this with candles lit, incense and let your worries go away! This’ll show you how Abel Prophett Music Pro handles one day at work!

Feels So Different Than Your Serenity Prayer released on Apple Music!! It’s just the teaser and spoiler alert! But it’s super dope and play this with candles lit, incense and let your worries go away! This’ll show you how Abel Prophett Music Pro handles one day at work!

Feels So Different Than Your Serenity Prayer released on Apple Music!! It’s just the teaser and spoiler alert! But it’s super dope and play this with candles lit, incense and let your worries go away! This’ll show you how Abel Prophett Music Pro handles one day at work!

— Read on vamphriireveriessoliloquy.wordpress.com/2021/07/02/feels-so-different-than-your-serenity-prayer-released-on-apple-music-its-just-the-teaser-and-spoiler-alert-but-its-super-dope-and-play-this-with-candles-lit-incense-and-let-your/

NATURAL ORDER NEVER LOSES AND ONLY MANKIND KEEPS TIME WHICH IS NOT NATURAL AND ONLY MAN BELIEVES WE WILL SURVIVE AS NATURAL ORDER HAS NOTHING BUT PATIENCE TO RESTORE LIFE ON EARTH WITHOUT MANKIND TO OFFER ANY KINDNIF OPPOSITION TO SLOW OR STOP NATURE FROM BEING REJUVENATED WITHOUT A SINGLE MAN TO KEEP AWAY THE SANCTUARY OF COHABITATION TO BE RETURNED TO PEACEFUL EXISTENCE WITHOUT MAN TO BE HERE TO PREVENT THE WORLD FEOM EXISTENCE IN STRESS FREE LUXURY.

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KEYKEY ARIA IS ONE SUPERSTAR KITTEN AND YOU SHOULD MAKE HER FAMOUS

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Biblical Devotees, Those Who Just Love Quoting Biblical Verses, The Holier Than Thou, Congregational Pew Sunday Entitled and The “WWJD/ Jesus On Board” Idiots Who Can’t Learn With All The Hindsight In The World(Otherwise Aptly Named “My Shit Don’t Stink In Pews”)

It is written that there will be men

it is written these men will do things

So it has been foretold that these men doing things will do more things

and those self same men shall come to do stuff

these men of such things doing stuff will let stuff be done before them

these stuffs done before these men having done things will be good stuff and things done

for it had been spoken that these men will not only do stuff and things but, they will also do things to stuff

these stern men of things stuffing stuff into things will claim to do stuff and things as well

these loud men of things in stuff with stuffing in things of stuff will shout loudly some stuff

while the shouting stuff men of things will surely stuff more things into things while stuff is done to things

it has been foretold that other men with stuff and things will want more stuff and things to stuff in things

they say these men with things and stuff who stuff things in stuff and other things will find great things to stuff into other things

crowds of men with things will watch some other men with stuff and things do stuff with their things as they stuff their things into stuff

those vast crowds of men without stuff but with some things will shout to those men with things stuffed into other stuff and things that they wish they had their own stuff with things to stuff into other things

but, lo those original men who had things and stuff which they had freely stuffed into things would cry “nay! Nay we say! For we are the only ones who may stuff our things into those other stuff and things and we will never allow you to own stuff to put into our things and we will take your things and add to our stuff and things we stuff into things and other stuff too”

and so it is written..

and other stuff and things..

so they say??

it is just stuffing things into other things and stuff.

so it has always been done.

stuff and things and men with things and men with stuff and things will both wish to stuff their things into other things and stuff

this is the word of great minded men of things with stuff and things they know about some stuff and things and they know great things about stuff so maybe you should do some stuff or maybe try some things

men with things they stuff into things and stuff say stuff and things matter so do some things to get some stuff and you will be just the same as men with things and stuffing things into other things with lots of stuff to stuff into things..

you can be men with stuff and things too

that’s what those men with things say for you to stuff up your thingy

so do some stuff and things

that’s what is written so you better do some thing before the stuffing in those things is stuffed into some thing you don’t wish to have stuff stuffed into your own thing

before it is too late!!

do some stuff and things!

time runneth short men without stuff or things so act with great haste and get some stuff to stuff into things before your things get stuffed into your own thing and you are stuffed with things

hurry and do some things and stuff

they told you it’s almost too late to do any things with stuff and things

that’s what he said anyway.

I dunno.

it’s some stuff and things

make sense to you???

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FIRST FACEBOOK TOOK AWAY MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH FOR TRUTHFUL ACCURACY OF PRESENT REALITY EVIL, NOW TWITTER DOES THE SAME AND BOTH SOCIAL MEDIA PLATFORMS MADE MY POINT AND GAVE ME JOY FOR SIMPLY ABANDONING BOTH AND LEAVING THEM TO BE ACTIVE WITHOUT ME CARING IN THE LEAST👏👏

#Thesefuckingmonkeys #poetcafe #poemsporn #withlovedivine #anothermasterpiece #mysmalltalkissolarge #letmesinkin #stopjudgingmewithureyes #spiritualrecovery #spiritualwellness #spiritualwellbeing #spiritualbeingwell #spiritualhealing #spiritualhealer #healyourselfinoneinstantforever #healallyourownpainnow #healalllifespaintoday #endyourlifespaintoday #rapeculturecrime #rapecultureawareness #rapeculturerecovery #rapecultureawakening #ionlywishicouldsetyoufree #howcouldanyonenotloveme #howcouldinotloveyou #godmadeyousobeautiful #iknowbecausegodmademesoloving #godbrokethemoldwhenmakingme #iamtheleastfallwormsinmen #iamnotworthyofthislifeilivetoday #whydoyouhatemeso #whydoyoudenymelove #whydoyourefusetoletmeloveyou #understandthewordsyouusetoday #youlovebubbleletters #iamsendingseedstoyourstonegarden #pleaseallowyourgardentobefertile #yourgardenofstone

#truthistruth #speakingtruthwithproof #truthfuldeclarations #mytruth #courageoustruthfulwordsdefyinglies

MY LITTLE BLACK BOX

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#mylittleblackbox #myfirstmemoir #realityisfictional #poetryallegorymine #allegoricalpoetry #poetryheroin #iwritesoliloquisofunrequitedlove #soliloquyallegories #myunrequitedlovesoliloquies #brokenheartsoliloquyallegory

YOU LOVE EMPTY MEANINGS IN WORDY GREETINGS AND LIARS USING LYRES SINGING FUNERAL DIRGES IN SCOURGES OF VERBIAGE MEANING LESS DISCOURAGES

So you drink up this nectar I lather in honey filled brilliance

While never bothering to share even so much a a single thinking yours

And while you leeches steal my speeches you denial releasing of my own preaching

I do not have ability to care any less for you to understand a word I write

As fueling my gasoline rages in brokenness stages unreformed and unrefined your mind

You relate in sedate numbed pilates bodies without sole knowing of your own soul

You feed my demons their evil reasons to be unleashed upon your feeble boned mindlessness

And my leashes are taught and tightened in my grip which I might just choose to loosen my slipped grip

Letting my demonic tendencies of suicidal friendless diseases of heroin depletion

You so numbed dumb and blindly following asses if asses in herds of turds

My wicked grinned pleasures in delightful treasures captured in chests and breasts

And karaoke bars carnivorous predation for she who possesses most sedation in liquor libations

To bite steel fangs into curly cue bangs neck bone and femur arteries of sweet meat where I prefer to feed

Thinking stinking writhing within your reeking corpse so rotten and forgotten of your own soul

Tell me what you need to hear in order to make my messages clear

And I will deliver a dripping river between your inner and outer fleshly ravenously craving tasting that delicious anticipation sweaty skin

Or I will continue to while away hours dreaming of one in my showers

Leaving you further behind head up your own behind so confused and abused

My words have zero meaning to you and that is not my own plight by any means

I say what I mean as I mean what I say as mean in meanings you find meaningless shows your true powerless to form even one consciousness thought

As I tread not lightly upon your little light and mean you no harm unless you are failed to be warned

And then it is nothing of my concern because I know you simply must come to learn before you find peace inside your urn

MY VAMPHYRII SELF IDEATION IN FANTASIES WRITTEN FROM ONE IMAGE INSIDE THIS TWISTED MIND SO DEADLY TO MY OWN SOUL CEMETERIES MADE MY MIDNIGHT PROWLING SPOKEN IN CALLS ANSWERED BY BROKEN FALLEN ANGELS CRAVING MY FANGS LOVERBOY PLAYMATES IN HELLISH DELIGHTED GRAVEYARD SEX SEXCAPADES OF BLOODLETTING DREAMLAND I LIVED AS VLAD THE IMPALER(fucking told you my imagination is something specially sick)

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WHEN A MAN SPENDS HIS ENTIRE LIFE LIVING LOVING HATRED OF HIMSELF AND THAT MAN HAS GIVEN ALL IN SACRIFICES FOR THOSE WHO SAID PRETTY UGLY THINGS SO LOUD IN ABSENCES OF GOLD HEARTED BLACKENED SOULS WHICH ONLY SAID THOUGHTS OF YOU ONLY AFTER MY TEXTS SAYING HOW I FEEL SO UNLOVABLE AND UNLOVED AND HE GETS GOD SHOWING ALL YOUR WICKED WAYS YOU CAN NEVER AGAIN PUSH YOUR EVIL WORDS INTO HIS STEEL TRAPPED KNOWING OF YOUR TRUEST NARCISSISTIC TENDENCIES WHICH SUICIDAL HEROIN DAYDREAMS IN HALF EMPTIED NEEDLES LEFT INSIDE NEAR COMATOSE THREE HOURS LATER AWAKENED BY DISAPPOINTMENT AND SELF DISGUST FOR NOT GETTING IT ALL INSIDE BEFORE I FELL OUT AND THAT MAN SEES SUCH CLARITY YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN FAR WISER NOT UNDERESTIMATING HIS ABILITY TO FUCKING HATE YOU SO PERFECTLY THAT HE NO LONGER FEARS ANYTHING SIMPLY BECAUSE HE STILL LIVES AND HAS BECOME IGNITED AND LIFTED BY HIS OWN SEETHROUGH MINUTE SELF IN UNWORTHY PRAISES FOR STILL HAVING ANOTHER DAY TO BE FULLY ALIVE IN GRATITUDE OF THAT BEAUTIFUL MERCIFUL LOVE WHICH ONLY HE KNOWS IN CERTAINTY WHICH MAKES YOU NOT ONLY IRRELEVANT BUT MORE DELIGHTFUL IS YOU HAVE BECOME INVISIBLE AND HIS SILENT GNAWING OF YOUR SOUL WRITHING INSIDE LUSTFUL DISGRACED SHAMING OF YOUR PUTRID BODY AND YOUR OWN TINY INTELLIGENT NON THINKING BRAIN MADE YOU HIS REASON TO PUNISH ALL YOU DID TO ATTEMPT TO RUTHLESSLY KILL HIM AND HIS KNOWING OF ALL YOU DO NOT MAKES HIM TROT AROUND IN FULL VIEW JUST HOPING TO SEE YOU FEELING TOUGH AND APPROACHING ME I LAUGH EVERYWHERE I GO KNOWING SOME STUFF AND THINGS THAT YOU NEVER EVEN BOTHERED TO TRY TO KNOW AND THAT MOUNTAIN OF A MONSTER MAN KNOWS HE LOVES THE WAY HIS OWN SILENCE FEELS AS I WRITE WITH PRECISION WORDS YOU CANNOT EVEN UNDERSTAND BECAUSE WIRDS IN THESE VERY INTELLECTUALLY WISDOM THREADED SYLLABLES DO FOR YOU AS YOU COLDLY AND REMORSELESSLY IMPOSED UPON MY OWN FIGHT TO SURVIVE AND THIS SILENT MOUNTAIN IS PRIMED TO BECOME A BIOLOGICAL VOLCANO OF TRUTH THAT TEARS YOUR SPIRIT DOWN KMOWING MY OWN VACANCY INSIDE YOUR OWN ROTTEN BODY AND THE THICKER MY VENOM THE MORE YOU ARE BENT OVER AND ITS SO ABOVE YOUR HEAD YOU SIMPLY FEEL SICKNESS WITHOUT THE BRAIN TO KNOW WHY.

#poetcafe #poemsporn #withlovedivine #anothermasterpiece #mysmalltalkissolarge #letmesinkin #stopjudgingmewithureyes

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CHOICES ARE SO FUCKING HARD FOR YOU

As though a dog spinning ridiculously in circles for the perfect spot to lay down on your blanket

You stack fifteen pillows and duvets covered shams of piles in bed to be removed before sleeping

You so fearfully dare never remove that goddamned sticker tag of any of those pretty pillows of sadness tear stains

Why pound your head against the head board pretty little lady?

Why is it you hunger for bigger better faster more?

Why do you pay men to fill your chests so you can have such heavy breasts?

Why do you pay those sociological nut case skin job professionally educated to annihilate your spirit in two week check ups and drain tube pulling?

Why do you walk aisles at ULTA looking for your perfect skin color matches to burn down your pretty

Spiritual center body you know nothing of reality

While pursuing 24 hour fitness planet fitness cross training massacres handed out by spotters motivational predators in wide wife beating attire?

Why do you window shopping weekend spending time outside looking inside at man made beautyless trinket run which will positively cost your storage unit bills?

Why do you browse other people’s trash looking for your own precious treasures on their two penny feebie bins?

Why do you pay so lavishly for Armani tailor fitted body definition in pant suits sexiness?

Why do you keep looking out outside for what will fill up your empty insides by making uhaul reservation to uproot your babies and insure they have no

Childhood friends

For life?

Why cannot you infer my words and remaining unheard my cries for help

For your soul in danger

Fail to reach the ears of the only mandatory reporting enitity

You are the pro in advocating your self pain

Yet you are the taliban of your own version of your own worst enemy so afraid of

YOUR SELF

UNABLE TO TRUST YOUR SELF

BECAUSE YOU SIMPLY REFUSE

TO SIMPLY LIVE

LOVING

Your

Fles?????!!!!

you see so well only with your ocular muscles

And you let them keep your busy body sanctuary in snap judgement to move away from

Instinct danger

While you find my words familiar LOOKING

my messages do nothing like hit home

no the bottle I send my notes out to sea in

you see as recyclables and toss them straight in the bin

Seeing only an empty glass shattered bottle

instead of realizing the note for help screaming lonely inside

Will be picked up by Thursday’s trash collection

And your raft will never arrive

Because you are choosing to be busy

Instead of even risking sitting in silence

Because you can still hear your spirit crying

Despite so dense white noise brain scrambling nightmare daytime nightlife in prisons

You paint your own clown sadness face

Which falls onto your pillow because you are too tired to even take your green contacts out before

You collapse until manana

I see you sad and lonely amongst your friends who are no friendly beings

as you feel differently inside how every one else

Treats your outsides

And it makes your insides heavy with emptiness

just because you refuse to be spirit

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I AM TRUTHFUL AND I AM SAYING TO YOU I JUST FREEFORMED MY FUCKING MASTERPIECE AS MASTER PEACE AND I GIVE IT TO YOU WITH ALL MY LOVING HEART. BLESSINGS ALWAYS. BE YOU, YOURE WORTH IT. I, LOVE DIVINE DO SOLEMY SWEAR TO WISH I SURE COULD JUST LOVE YOU, BEAUTIFUL YOU AND ALL😿

#poetcafe #poemsporn #igiveyoumymasterpiece #imjustwritinganimageivealwayshadinside

#ohgodhowiwishyoucouldjustloveme2

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KNOWING SO TRULY LITTLE YOU READ EMPTY SHELLS INSIDE LAYING SEEDS OF HEALING REMAIN UNINTERESTING TO YOU

You care not to know about real mental health nightmares

You choose to believe those mountains do never need to be climbed

You choose to pay with deadly intentions deadly and evil smiling assassination attempts without respite

You take away my quality of life in my own healthy achievements

And thrust me headlong into crisis management navigation just to reach my own medical prescriptions

You choose to steal my souls fire by carelessly imposing broken promises in words through text appear so beautiful and well spoken in my own craving just a moment of you allowing me to survive

Just one precious restful moment away from your living love murderous poisons written to appear so godlike

Saying in text

I am sorry

I got you

I want to help you

I promise to be listening always

I loooooooooooooooooove you soooooooooooo much

Hiding that venomous and virally deadly suicidal poisonous soul stealing diseased ideation of how siooooooooo wonder full you truly seem now

You are filled honestly with wonder

Not even wise enough to see that very sickening thinking you share with all those who so adore you because you stopped shooting dope and lost over a hundred pounds

So your evil friends can at least stand

Just to look at you

In your empty shell

So dead inside

You have no hope

Period

Fucking forget being forgiven fir your despicable living debaucherous and grossness filled

Shitty air piping in hot noxious clouds expelled from your too loosened anus

And you have made me so sick of your shit

I want to take all your life apart

And now how the evidence mountains to have not a need for legal representations in any way

To lock you away from the life you built yourself

Upon my back

And imprison you for your remainder of breaths in this shit scented air

To be spent in four by eight concrete cells

Because you hated me so well

And now I hate you so much better

And will hate you right where you belong

Living loving myself for once and for all saying

I HAVE MOTHERFUCKING HAD FUCKING ENOUGH OF YOUR SHITTY SELF

AND I LOATHE YOU EVERY MOMENT WITH HELLISH AND WICKED DISGUSTED KNOWING

WHO YOU ARE

having already forgotten in just a few seconds

why in hell I ever saw anything good

about you at all

because you are the ugliest

shit human I have ever even met

and I hate how you wanted to feel inside

YOU SHOULD TRY TO GIVE ME EVEN A TINY REASON NOT TO JAIL YOU FOR THE REMAINDER OF YOUR LIFE

In the case you built against your own self

In a capital murder

Courtroom shaming

For your truest actions which I have such documents that I can mail your gas chamber recommendation

And know you will breath less

By miles

Than I wanted for you

goddamn you!

you forced me to want you to hurt

and I wanted to kill myself

why would you want this?

I definitely never dreamed I would want this

yet you have no other option

So hating you the best is what I wish to do

While never getting closer to you

Than across a courtroom prosecution and defendant separated pursuit of your just desserts

YOU HAVE FULL BODY ABSENT OF KNOWING ME IN EVERY WAY

You do not know one second of my life

You know fucking nothing of what is my experience

You know fucking nothing of pain I survived

You know fucking zero about misery I lived

You know fucking zero about my homeless living

You know fucking zero about my eighteen thousand two hundred fifty battles won against evil

You know fucking zero about suicidal emptiness LADENED seconds I survived alone

You know fucking zero about the lifetimes I have lived and died tragically in heroin melodies danced into my heart with furious hatred of my own disgrace

You know fucking nothing about the physical pain which raised my pain threshold into Jupiter’s orbit

You know fucking zero about the miles I have walked dopesickened and deadly Illnesses which pushed me tirelessly sleeplessly towards a burned house squatting smack dealing leech doctor of the painful living that ails me

You know fucking nothing of even one second where drawing toilet water from a service station bathroom without a working sink for clean like water without MRSA to cook out of it

You know fucking zero of my self loathing hatred in shaking hands with the real Devil for trading my soul for a twenty dollar bag of poison named sweetly heroin in absolute trickery in oxymoronic self assessment without anything valuable inside me

You fucking know less than nothing about one moment of my life

How dare you judge me?!!!!!!!!

You said suicidal heroin deadly isolation fighting your hatred with adoration for how ugliness you made me feel inside hiding your venomous intentions inside smiles and proclaimed confusing hugs which ripped my soul to pieces and made heroin numbness my only option for any semblance of peace inside

You know fucking so much less about me than to know my longing stares at a cemetery from behind treatment clinic prison Windows and how delightful and delicious that graveyard gathering of lost souls seemingly so truly vampire dreamy romantic and how my own grace serenaded me with such silent pretty songs which made me seek first romantically encountered sexual predation of innocents in girls nakedness against headstones bent over so I could deliver my truest wickedness inside them with thrusts violent and deadly into their very souls

You know fucking nothing of my own romantic spirit and how my own mastery of romance revealed itself in vampire love stories which made me crave a beautiful woman’s blood to trickle down my chin after having fed upon that sweet cherry wine liquid filling her veins and keeping her warm so I can feed

You know nothing of the demons whom danced inside my own head out of your stupidity in ocular devotion as blackness seeped into my body at will to those demonic real entities which had free will to rape my soul at birth and everything since

You fucking know so little you do not know how little you know little of anything real and valuable

You see with your eyes and read in consuming content less unworthy words rammed so voraciously down your chronically halitosised mouthful of teeth not even resembling smiles but exactly appearing as they are in roundworm clenching parasitic feeding off of another person’s pain so direly feeling understood while remaining to truly understand your own world

You fucking knowing nothing at all goodwill in nature

You know only skyscraper suicides and street urchin disgusting refusal to have spare change in your vault of money filled vacationing lifestyle of the rich and soulless

You fucking stupid monkeys know less than nothing

And you are so very mountainous inside your puny self thinker

And what you do mot know

Should fucking terrify you

But, quite contrarian you choose proud smartest self in superiority to all lesser creatures

These unworthy homeless swine you deny a chance to even survive

With heads held high and flags in masks you proudly parade around

Just dying to be like every one

Else

And that is why I can not care

And in every way possible to infer my messages

In every possible defining understanding of what the letter combinations I apply to what I say

In every conceived way imaginable

CANNOT

MISS

You

Metaphors and limericks aside

In blunt truthful disgusting revelation to what you mean to me

Not only can I NOT MISS YOU

BUT RATHER

I DO NOT MISS YOU LITERALLY FIGURATIVELY METAPHYSICALLY RHETORICALLY INTENTIONALLY AND ABSOLUTELY DEADLY ACCURATELY WILL NEVER MISS YOU AS I SCRIBE SMALL TALK SO ABOVE YOUR DEADHEAD

AS I PREDATE UPON THE WICKEDNESS INSIDE YOUR OWN ROTTEN CORPSE WITHOUT YOU ANY THE

WISER

AND I AM TIPTOING THROUGH DAISY FILLED MEADOWS OF ROMANTIC LOVE

WITHOUT ANYTHING MORE THAN I SHUDDER TO THINK

OF HOW UGLY YOU NARCISSISTIC SAVAGELY VOIDED

TRULY APPEAR WITHOUT YOU EEN HAVING THE ABILITY TO CHANGE MY OWN OPINION

REGARDLESS OF WETHER OR NOT YOU CARE TO KNOW

I TRUTHFULLY CONFESS I HOPE TO GOD YOU DO NOT BOTHER TRYING TO READ WHAT I SAY

I ALREADY KNOW YOU ARE NOT ONE OF GODS GOOD ONES

SO GO FUCK YOURSELF

YOU JUST LIVE TO LOVE GETTING YOUR OWN SELF FUCKED SO WELL

THINKING YOUR SHIT DOTH NOT PUTRIFY THE AIR AROUND YOU

FOR YOUR HEAD IS TRULY SO FAR UP YOUR OWN ASSES

THAT YOU JUST ADORE THE WAY YOUR OWN BRAND

OF METHANE GAS

SMELLS DELIGHTFULLY WELL

AND I HAVE ALREADY CAST YOU ASIDE

AS I ASCEND

#Thesefuckingmonkeys

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I AM SO CALM AND SO BOMB THERE IS STORMS IN MY FINGERTIPS WHICH SEND YOUR SPIRIT THROUGH ATMOSPHERIC PRESSURE YOU DO NOT EVEN UNDERSTAND BECAUSE YOU CANNOT FEEL AND YOU RESERVE SERVICE OF MAKING LOVE RESTRICTED TO PORNO POWERED SWEAT FESTS OF DISAPPOINTMENT AND I WANNA ROMANCE YOUR SOUL LIKE THE MASTER MY MOTHER NAMED MASTER EVEN IN HER HATRED OF ME AND I KNOW HOW LUCKY I AM TO STILL BE HERE SO MAYBE SHOW ME SOMETHING LIVING LOVING IN RETURN AND ASK YOURSELF WHY WOULD I EVER WANT TO STOP MAKING LOVE AND UNDERSTAND.

THIS IS SERIOUSLY RECOVERY OF SPIRITUAL WELL-BEING AND TOTAL TRUEST IMMUNITY

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MY ATTEMPT TO SAVE MY ENEMY THE LOSS OF ALL QUALITY OF LIFE IN REACHING AN EARLY AND DESERVING END TO THE INSANITY OF WICKED PEOPLE

Knowing you do nothing to understand the situation you have forced upon me

And in my final attempt to be genuinely kind
In my god like attempt to save
You from great great miserable experience
This is my last attempt for you to listen to me

Wether or not you have sense to know I have a case you built against yourself in so many reports that the ramifications legally are suffocating to me

Knowing you gave me absolutely zero choice but to seek my justice

You should consider signing this unit over to me and agree to pay property taxes as an amicable settlement

Which will completely stop this freight train you have mistakenly sent out of control

And I will not pursue any further action against you

This one time nonnegotiable settlement is offered in request you one time

Do the right thing to me

You are certain to blow me off
A d certain you will talk about me as insignificant

But Jessy I want to not ruin your life

And in a genuine act of goodwill

I offer you the olive branch

Make your choice

Knowing I can never care what you think

And you already lost so badly

I start pushing buttons

And it is nothing you will find a way to possibly avoid

If you want to accept this offer

You may tell jaucinta at cap that if my hen runs out I will not have to worry about losing my hen payment until it runs out

As your amazing bonus I am capable of delivering to you

So expected of you is already my baseline
So think it over
If you have the ability to even make sense

I will await your response through a message left at CAP
TELLING ME EVERYTHING IS OK
JESSY SAYS SHE GOT YOU

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Knowing you do nothing to understand the situation you have forced upon meAnd in my final attempt to be genuinely kindIn my god like attempt to saveYou from great great miserable experienceThis is my last attempt for you to listen to meWether or not you have sense to know I have a case you built against yourself in so many reports that the ramifications legally are suffocating to meKnowing you gave me absolutely zero choice but to seek my justiceYou should consider signing this unit over to me and agree to pay property taxes as an amicable settlementWhich will completely stop this freight train you have mistakenly sent out of controlAnd I will not pursue any further action against youThis one time nonnegotiable settlement is offered in request you one timeDo the right thing to meYou are certain to blow me offA d certain you will talk about me as insignificantBut Jessy I want to not ruin your lifeAnd in a genuine act of goodwillI offer you the olive branchMake your choiceKnowing I can never care what you thinkAnd you already lost so badlyI start pushing buttonsAnd it is nothing you will find a way to possibly avoidIf you want to accept this offerYou may tell jaucinta at cap that if my hen runs out I will not have to worry about losing my hen payment until it runs outAs your amazing bonus I am capable of delivering to youSo expected of you is already my baselineSo think it overIf you have the ability to even make senseI will await your response through a message left at CAPTELLING ME EVERYTHING IS OKJESSY SAYS SHE GOT YOU

IF YOU ACTUALLY TAKE THE TIME TO INVEST IN MY SCRIBINGS AND SHORT STORIES YOU WILL SEE MY BEGINNINGS WHEN GOD STARTED SENDING CLEAR AND CONCISE MESSAGES TO ME THE THIRD TIME I HAD RUN THROUGH SPIN CYCLE 30 DAY SPIN DRYS AND HAVING SPENT MY LIFE FEEDING OFF OF LYRICS ISOLATION PAINFUL LONELY HEART BREAK AND FEELING I WOULD NEVER WRITE EVEN ONE GOOD LYRIC I CAME OUT OF THE GATE WICKEDNESS AND EMOTIONALLY EFFECTIVE IN ONE PICTURE INSIDE MY MIMDS EYE.

IF YOU ARE ACTUALLY FOLLOWING ALONG AND NOT JUST HITTIN’THAT COCKSUCKING PASSIVE INDIFFERENCE OF BRAINLESSLY CLICKING A MOTHERFUCKING BUTTON SO NOT A BUTTON YET PEOPLE CANT HELP CLICKING CUNTY AND ROTTEN APATHETIC “LIKES”STRICTLY BECAUSE EVERYONE SELLS EVERYTHING OUT AT COVER PRICE

WHAT MAKES ME SICK IS HOW MUCH PEOPLE ACTUALLY “READING” AND LITERALLY DO NOT BEGIN TO KNOW THAT WORDS ARE NOT THOSE PRETTY JUNIOR HIGH BUBBLES LETTERED IN DREAMY LOVENOTES WRITTEN IN HOLLOWED OUT SEED SHELLS WITH NOTHING INSIDE AS A PIT MEANT TO NOURISH THOSE LISTENING WITH ACTIONS THAT MAKE JUST ONE SIMPLY KIND TEXT SENT SAYING

hey you I was just thinking of you and it warmed my heart

YOU CHOOSE TO DENY EVEN KNOWING HOW TO USE WORDS IN ANY WAY APPROPRIATE BECAUSE IN EVERY WORD YOU READ ALL YOU SAW WERE WORDS THAT LOOKED MADE FROM PRETTY BALLOONS AND THAT IS AS SMART AS WANTING TO CONSTRUCT A THEATER AND SITTING IN THE HOME DEPOT PARKING LOT AWAITING SOMEONE TO SERVE YOU INDEFINITELY FROM OPEN TO CLOSE DAILY

WONDERING EVERY NIGHT GETTING HOME HOW COME THEM SONS A BITCHEZ AINT GOT THAT FUCKER BUILT YET!!

Mollies so empty of qualities i know too well

You are a nonstarter

And in no time showing me the coldest

And by being unable to be forgiven

JUST BECAUSE SOMEBODY SHOULD MAKE YOU FEEL AS BEAUTIFUL INSIDE AS I KNOW YOU NOT ONLY CAN BE BUT ALSO HOW TRULY BEAUTIFUL YOU CLEARLY DREAM OF BEING STARING AT YOUR FAVE IN THE MIRROR LOVED SO EMPTY INSIDE YOUR SOUL IS FAR OUTSIDE YOUR MOST SENSITIVE PERIPHERAL SIGHT SIMPLY BECAUSE YOU RELY ON OUTER OOTICS RATHER THAN PREFERRED SEEING WITH YOUR INNER THIRD EYE❤️

Blessings always 😇😇😇🔥🔥🔥🔥❤️❤️❤️❤️

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